the story
Bella’s only release comes in the form of distantly orbiting the life of Edward Cullen. As with any addiction, however, she’s always left wanting more.
“Mad is a term we use to describe a man who is obsessed with one idea and nothing else.” [Ugo Betti]
Rated M/NC-17 for language and sexuality
substance clad in shadows 
Loves ur story on ff.
Good morning hollelujah – so very glad to have found the new home for your story. ?Was this the same summary you had on facebook? If so, what was offensive about it? Also wondering how you will notify your followers when updates happen? Will it be by email?
It’s exactly the same as it was on FFn. Not sure what happened there. And I do think you can follow the story and be notified by email when it updates, but if not, I’ll tweet it as well.
Bookmarked :o)
Ditto ~p2cat
I’m so turned off whenever I find out the author of fic a I really enjoy doesn’t picture Kristen as Bella… But Rob is always there… Anyway, I I’ll keep reading cause it’s a great story.
I do adore Kristen, but I had a more specific Bella in my head before I had any idea she was cast. Thanks for reading!
Is that Emmy Rossum? For me, she’s the perfect Bella :))
That’s really close minded & fucking stupid of you.
What exactly is close minded of me? Having preferences? What about hating Kristen? Is that open minded of you?
Thank you for posting here!! I would have been lost without finding out what happens!!
Hey. Glad I found the site. Will you still be updating on ff.net, now that it’s back up there?
The story as it is is still on FFn, but it’s no longer on my profile so I won’t be able to update it. I’m assuming it will eventually be taken down completely.
I love this story, and it’s so sad that so many of my favorite authors have to look elsewhere to post their stories. Anyway. Looking forward to the next update. 🙂
Love your story
I just started this story yesterday before it was pulled completely. I was hooked IMMEDIATELY! Your writing is amazing and so different. I was sucked in from the beginning. I nearly had a coronary when I got to chapter 20 and it was gone! I’m so happy that you’ve found somewhere to post. I look forward to your updates 🙂 also I have to say I love your choice for Bella. She’s perfect. I too picture Bella as someone other then KS, and in every fic it’s someone different depending on the story. Thanks for sharing your talent with us all :)))
Thanks! I’m glad I was able to re-post it, too. I would hate to be involved in your coronary!
Maybe I’m blind, but is there a subscription option? Otherwise, I’ll never get a chance to read updates…
In the bottom right-hand corner of your browser, there should be a “Follow+” button. Enter your email address in the field and you’ll be signed up to receive updates.
Nope. Not there, and I often see that on WP pages. Even checked on another browser…not there. 😦
Still not seeing the window (which is a more accurate way to describe it). Can you post on TWCS or something because it doesn’t seem like this is going to be fixed any time soon.
Right now I have no plans to post anywhere else. Try googling “how to follow a blog on _____ [whatever your web browser is]” … I google stuff like that all the time, and it’s usually helpful. If not, I’ll tweet whenever I update. Thanks!
Feel like i spent the entire day trying to find this page!! So glad I finally was able to. Not happy with whatever the heck is going on over at ffn, but glad to be able to continue reading and enjoying this story!
love it!
wonderful story – your writing is superb!
Glad you have a new home…ff will regret their actions…eventually…maybe.
Love the story, bb.
Glad it’s back up 🙂
Love your story:)
I likr the summary but waiting it to be complette before read it
Thank you for finding a way to continue posting your work. You are a brilliant writer and have many loyal fans. I look forward to your updates. ~
I’m so glad I found this story again. I love it!
Love this story. So very different! I look forward to updates!
I love your story!
Sooooooo ready for a new chappy! I hope that what happened at FF isn’t putting you off. Please take care!!!!!!
Love this!
sooo good. please update!
I miss this story!
Please update 🙂 I’m attached to this story
I hope that all is well! We haven’t heard from you!
I love this story! It’s different and great! I hope it will be finished somedays soon..
will this story be competed soon. I REALLY want to read it, but hate reading a WIP because I’m always afraid it won’t be completed!! 🙂
Will this story be competed soon? I REALLY want to read it, but hate reading a WIP because I’m always afraid it won’t be completed!! 🙂
Hi, have been waiting for an update for months, are you likely to finish this story? I absolutely love it! Please, give your readers a Christmas present!
I do not know the author but I am waiting for updates also……that being said it is my understanding that hollelujah has just recently had a second baby and is otherwise occupied for now…..that’s called “real life” and it definitely comes before updates to our favorite stories:-)
this story owned me now… I’m really happy about her happy (new baby) and I will be waiting for updates… even donkey’s years 🙂
Agreed. I really like this story.. Original concept, great writing, and I’m intrigued by Isabella’s growth/transformation. 🙂
I was just alerted via Fan Fic that this story is being re-posted. As is or changed to fit closer to FFN’s guidelines?
Confused…
do you know when there is going to be another chapter perhaps? I got tons of emails of the story being updated for fanfic but not a new chapter 😦
I did notice on FFN there are 21 chapters but there are 22 shown here at the bottom of the comments. Was the reported story changed?
Hope to see new chapters soon!!’
Meant to say re-posted story.